who we are

i walked by a store on the way to work today and saw myself. in the clear window that showcased some half naked manaqueins and tennis shoes, i actually saw myself for who i felt i was today. and whats significant here isn't how long i saw myself or in what position i saw myself, no. what was significant was that the figure i saw captured the true and haunting essence as to how i felt at that moment and how i have felt more and more recently. you see, in the window, i was vague. i was a mere ghost of my physical self. i was transparent and insignificant, undistinguishable from the people passing me and unnoticeable from the dozens in view.

i often feel like i'm slipping away.

now slipping away from what is another issue. another question all together. i could be slipping away from myself or from who i used to be. i could be slipping away from my routines or slipping away from God. it is just as possible that i could be slipping away from my hopes and dreams as it is possible that i am slipping away from good nights of sleep. nevertheless though, i feel as though i am slipping away.

who are we?

who am i, that as a human being, i can define who i am as an individual? who am i to determine the benchmarks i have for myself. to proclaim what i am slipping away from, or falling into, something significant. or insignificant. who am i to differentiate the two?

because to state that i am slipping away from something is to imply that i was initially at a certain place. it is to imply that i was stationed and comfortable at a specific spiritual, mental or physical locale - one strong enough to create a forceful sensation once i have metaphysically moved on. hence my dilemma. if my soul was in a secure position in a certain aspect of my life to the point where it was intact and subcounscious by all means until a shift caused me to realize that such a position existed, how do i shift back?

and more importantly, should i try to?