new york decisions

if there is nothing else this move has done for me, it has allowed me to make decision after decision after decision. for some decisions, i must decide what’s best for those i care for, those that are directly affected by my choices. for other decisions, I must decide what’s best for myself. in every decision, i must decide who i’m deciding for.

decisions tell us and others what type of person we are. i learned this first when i was in a creative writing class in undergrad (i had a flat character because i didn’t have him making any decisions). outside of that class, i’ve learned that that is true – character is defined by and built off of the decisions we make. it exposes our priorites and motives behind our actions. they shed light on the type of person we are underneath and help us understand who we are to become later. something as simple as whether or not to help a certain person or go a specific place. something as simple as turning left or right, determining whether to stay or go, or whether to be happy or sad. our decisions reflect who we are. our decisions define us.

but where it really gets confusing is when you approach the notion that the decisions one makes now impacts another's decision later. Therefore, on a grand scale – defining yourself changes the definition of someone else – every, single, day.

just something to think about.