venus 2

um, i guess nevermind. scratch venus #1. i mean, everything i said was true, sortof, but in the grand scheme of things, it may very well be irrelevent. You, the one i was talking to that didn't think it was them, everything is ok. not that we have communicated at all, or have even established the fact that i based my stupidity on the conundrm of your actions (or lack thereof). but rather, it's cool for the sake of it just being cool. just because descent is relative. just because some riddles are best left unsolved. i was talking to a good friend of mine (whad up l-dot, see you this weekend!) and said, "distance makes one's view objective". not hindsight. hindsight is based on memory, and includes hopes, disappointments, and the results of set expectations. hindsight includes emotion. hindsight includes bias and prejudice. hindsight, looking back, is only 20/20 only because one is now wearing the glasses of knowledge, but not wisdom. they are looking through the shades of awareness, but have not understanding. they are looking through the binoculars of cognition, but have not gained perception. hindsight, you see, is the act of looking back knowing now what you wish you had known then, but it does not equip you with the comprehension to analyze the situation in and of itself.

it's like looking back and seeing that you dropped something, and not having sense enough to determine whether or not to go pick it up.

distance makes one's view objective because it allows you to see a situation for what it is, and not necessarily what it is to you personally. and that makes a big difference. because where a personal attachment to a situation is important, and needed, decisions cannot be based on that alone. one must remove themselves from the emotion, from the bias, from the hopes, disapppointments, joys, hurts, laughter, tears, and expectations in order to look at it in it's fullest sense and analyze it correctly. sometimes we have to step back to look at the whole. hell, sometimes we have to step back just to remind ourselves how close we really were. you can't tell what something is when you're right up on it. we all have to step back and make it objective. make it not only equitable, but also empirical. yeah, i'm playing with my thesaurus right now.

so, because it's late, and i have to go to bed, i just want to say...it's alright. for anyone that reads this blog and feels it, for anyone that was nodding their head while reading the previous paragraphs, for anyone that understands what i'm talking about - even if they had to read it twice to catch it all; for anyone out there that feels me...it's alright. it's not easy. it's not quick. and it's not comfortable. but it is alright. you're doing fine.

have a nice day.