bridge over troubled waters

i'm facing the same problem now that i was two years ago. first i get a blog. fill it with personal thoughts and ideas. then people start going to it regularly. then things are all good. THEN some stuff in my life happens. then i can't really share it on the internet as i shared so much before. then i am left with little to write because i can't write what i feel. then i suffer from writers block. then i don't write. then i loathe the fact that i was ever so open to begin with.

what will inevitably happen will be that i will stop writing (like so many other bloggers that were once with me). then more stuff will happen. then things will be all good. then i will feel the urge to write again. then i will start up a new blog on some new website. then i will name it something more along the lines of my thought process (depending on whatever year that is). then i will proclaim how i'm back...again...and will stay...again. then it will officially be a cycle.

like the menstral.

or maybe this is just a phase. like an author that gets finished writing a particular chapter in her book, but can't go any further until she finishes signing her divorce papers. or like a doctor that can't complete a surgery without a shot of whiskey and a bag of cheetos. it's a car that can't go through a race without a tuneup. a boxing match that must have the end of it's rounds! this blog is a concert with an intermission!! a show with commercials!! it's Family Guy before it found it's stride on Adult Swim!!! even God rested.

damn the man! save the empire!

and that, my friends, is what you call self-motivation. talking yourself into believing that your writer's block is something that brings you closer to God is not healthy. and contrary to everything that i stated above, i do not condone blaming ones laziness on going thorugh a phase and comparing it to PMS. who knows what this is. and more importantly, who gives a flying fuck. yes, i will write a blog from time to time about how i can't seem to write a blog. you've read this same speech before. you'll hear it again. and where there is some truth in what was mentioned eariler, the REAL truth is that everybody goes through shit. it's human. and our shit affects the next person's shit. and so on and so on, until we all have the same smelly shit. hence the expression.

so. with that said:

1. dating is for losers until i think otherwise.
2. white people are cool, but i love my culture.
3. mice are smarter than we think.
4. no, she's not a lesbian.
5. she's doing her job. it's just her job that sucks - not her.
6. yes, i almost hit him with a textbook.
7. professionals don't deal with the stupid shit.

have a nice day.